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Unreal
Whoever prepared L's body did a marvelous job. The worry lines were smoothed from his peaceful face. He looked more like I remembered him when I first began taking classes from him in 2008. It was a relief to see his body finally at rest.
But he had no business laying there. I was too stunned to memorize the date of his birth on the sign propped up in the lid of the coffin; all I know is there weren't anywhere near enough years there, not even 60 years. (Added 2 March, 6:46 PM ~ he would have been 57 years old this Friday, 5 March, had he lived.)
On the one hand, I am comforted when I tell myself he's no longer in pain or short of breath or worried about how to provide for his family, etc. I am comforted to believe that in some form or fashion, he is at peace.
On the other hand, I really will miss him.
But he had no business laying there. I was too stunned to memorize the date of his birth on the sign propped up in the lid of the coffin; all I know is there weren't anywhere near enough years there, not even 60 years. (Added 2 March, 6:46 PM ~ he would have been 57 years old this Friday, 5 March, had he lived.)
On the one hand, I am comforted when I tell myself he's no longer in pain or short of breath or worried about how to provide for his family, etc. I am comforted to believe that in some form or fashion, he is at peace.
On the other hand, I really will miss him.