Slowly Starting the Week
May. 24th, 2010 09:32 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wlotusI have a feeling today will be a quiet day spent listening to soothing music. I don't exactly feel "under the weather", but I don't exactly feel like my regular self. My calendar leads me to chalk it up to hormones and be extra-kind to myself.
Making photos at the bike blessing on Saturday was a lot of fun. It also helped me cope with the over-stimulation that comes from spending three or four hours in a new environment where I don't know anyone other than T. (I am not sure if I am more sensitive to such things now that I am in my 40s, or if I am simply more aware of my reaction as I've learned to pay attention to and respect my unique way of moving in the world.) For the first hour the combination of loud music from the DJ, the sea of unfamiliar faces, and the sensation of not really belonging (both because I am a new rider without her own bike and because I have never felt comfortable immersed in black urban culture...the energy is very different from my own) meant I was pretty much glued to T's side. It took a conscious act of will for me to venture out on my own while we were there. Social events are not my forte, but I'm not used to feeling so intimidated. I was a little surprised by my shyness.
In spite of my shyness and a twinge of annoyance when the festivities were paused so a local minister could say a long prayer over the bikers and their families (flashbacks to less happy times in the life of![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
wlotus), I had a wonderful time. The food was great, as was the music. The bikes, of course, were beautiful. When we first arrived there were only about 20 bikes there, most of them sport bikes. But as the afternoon wore on the cruisers started arriving, so I had lots to marvel at. I'm a little anxious to buy my own bike--the Kawasaki Vulcan 1700 Nomad is at the top of my list--but that will have to wait until my finances are in better shape.
Everyone else in my family has left for work and school. Time for me to hop in the shower, fire up some incense, and start my own work day. Perhaps I can find a way to get rid of this sudden attack of the hiccups, too!
Making photos at the bike blessing on Saturday was a lot of fun. It also helped me cope with the over-stimulation that comes from spending three or four hours in a new environment where I don't know anyone other than T. (I am not sure if I am more sensitive to such things now that I am in my 40s, or if I am simply more aware of my reaction as I've learned to pay attention to and respect my unique way of moving in the world.) For the first hour the combination of loud music from the DJ, the sea of unfamiliar faces, and the sensation of not really belonging (both because I am a new rider without her own bike and because I have never felt comfortable immersed in black urban culture...the energy is very different from my own) meant I was pretty much glued to T's side. It took a conscious act of will for me to venture out on my own while we were there. Social events are not my forte, but I'm not used to feeling so intimidated. I was a little surprised by my shyness.
In spite of my shyness and a twinge of annoyance when the festivities were paused so a local minister could say a long prayer over the bikers and their families (flashbacks to less happy times in the life of
wlotus), I had a wonderful time. The food was great, as was the music. The bikes, of course, were beautiful. When we first arrived there were only about 20 bikes there, most of them sport bikes. But as the afternoon wore on the cruisers started arriving, so I had lots to marvel at. I'm a little anxious to buy my own bike--the Kawasaki Vulcan 1700 Nomad is at the top of my list--but that will have to wait until my finances are in better shape.Everyone else in my family has left for work and school. Time for me to hop in the shower, fire up some incense, and start my own work day. Perhaps I can find a way to get rid of this sudden attack of the hiccups, too!
