I Can Survive Stress

[wlotus]

As I made the latest strategic move in the financial chess game of my life, I thought about how fucking sick I am of the financial stress. However, I realize there will always be some kind of stress in everyday life, even if I were to come upon a miraculous windfall that would make me independently wealthy for the rest of my life. With that thought in mind, I keep living through my current stress, rather than being overcome by it. I may as well live, not just survive, since stress is a part of life.

There was a time when the thought of life always containing stress would have depressed me to the point of suicide. I suppose I would have felt I couldn't live through the stress: in my mind my choices were either completely escape stress or die. (That is what my therapist meant when she told me I seem to believe I won't survive uncomfortable emotions, rather than realizing I have survived them before and will survive them, again.) But it helps me to remember stress is cyclical, not present 24 hours a day, seven days a week. There is happiness, joy, and peace in my life, too. And since I know I have survived past stresses when they have arisen in-between the happiness, joy, and peace, I see every reason to believe I will survive present stresses.

There has been healing and growth in me. I have healthier expectations of life and of myself, now. I am glad I didn't kill myself all of the times I thought about and tried it.

Comments

[iswari.livejournal.com]

I am glad, too. *hugs*

[flyingshaman.livejournal.com]

This was a beautiful post. Thank you for sharing. This somewhat reflects how my own life has been going, more in the realm of school for me though.

As the old adage goes, "This too shall pass."

[mage-girl.livejournal.com]

I'm glad that you didn't either, Sistah.

Much Love,


K.

[labellerose.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you are here, too! There are people this sorry old planet could do without, but you are SO not one of them.

[ladyofthelog.livejournal.com]

I'm happy you are still with us. :)

[ciardhapagan.livejournal.com]

Glad you are still with us too.

I've had times where things just unbearable with stress and terrible things just made life feel like a hellish experience- worst time for me was when my mother died suddenly in August 2005. I still miss her like everything, but that pain isn't constant and overwhelming.

[tively-split.livejournal.com]

I'm also glad you didn't leave, even when you wanted to.

[arkadelos.livejournal.com]

Ah! We seem to have been in the same situation emotionally. I had been in a really nasty psychological state for a few years after high school, and this past year, I am finally getting my life in order.

[wlotus.livejournal.com]

I'm glad things are looking up for you!