Behind or In Front of the Camera

[wlotus]

Writers' Block asks if we prefer being behind the camera or in front of it. I prefer being behind it...unless I am operating the camera. It's because I don't trust how people view me through the lens. But when I am operating the camera, I have complete control over how I look in the final draft...and no one ever need see the outtakes, if I don't want that.

That's a surface commentary on how little trust I have in how society at large portrays me and how much I resent their justifications for the less-than-flattering presentations. But those thoughts are too deep to put here.

Comments

[wlotus.livejournal.com]

You certainly are not the only one. :-)

I am getting better at relaxing in front of the camera so at least my face looks normal. But I don't like or trust other people to photograph my body. "Monster" is a pretty accurate way to describe how they usually make me come out. It's horrifying to think that is how people view me day in and out!

[silveringridd.livejournal.com]

yeah. my body...ugh. i'm not too fond of it. but at least if i'm the one taking the picture, i can so it the way i want it to be seen. i often wonder what other people are seeing when i'm walking around. you could drive yourself crazy wondering these things. it's hard not to though.

[wlotus.livejournal.com]

Life is stressful enough without thinking of that, hon. :-) The nice thing about self-potraits is you can keep *that* image of yourself in your head, rather than carrying the images others have made of you. It's the ultimate form of self-definition.

[silveringridd.livejournal.com]

you are absolutely right. :)