Lotus Shrugged
Jul. 18th, 2008 11:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
wlotusToday, I am tired. There is so much to do, so much I could do, but only a few of those things seem worth my time and energy.
Sorting, editing, and developing my photos is at the top of that list. So is cleaning out my photoblog and Fotki account, so only the best of the best are displayed there.
Blogging here is not on the top of the list. Other than this post, it isn't on the list at all. Thinking about blogging here puts me on tenterhooks, because of the potential consequences. I am more than just pictures and self-reflection. I am politically conscious, and I want to share that. But when I did, some folks left and shut me out of their blogs in the process. Some of them came back after I stopped posting political stuff so much. When I think about posting a new set of political reflections, I feel anxious about losing access to their blogs, again, as punishment for not seeing things their way, for not letting them air or argue about their views here instead of in their own blogs, for not seeing things as unemotionally as they may see them, or for not being as emotional about what they are emotional about. I didn't do that to any of them; I just scrolled past their political posts and left them in peace, if I didn't agree with them. But far be it from any of them to extend the same courtesy to me. It reminds me of the emotional blackmail I grew up with, except now it's over politicians who don't know any of us personally and never will. I never thought I would see that day.
I hate being on tenterhooks, so I'm jumping down for a little while. If I'm gone for more than a day or two and you would like to continue to enjoy my photos, you are welcomed to visit my photoblog. If you want to know what is going on with me, please email me.
Central Park
18 July 2008
Sorting, editing, and developing my photos is at the top of that list. So is cleaning out my photoblog and Fotki account, so only the best of the best are displayed there.
Blogging here is not on the top of the list. Other than this post, it isn't on the list at all. Thinking about blogging here puts me on tenterhooks, because of the potential consequences. I am more than just pictures and self-reflection. I am politically conscious, and I want to share that. But when I did, some folks left and shut me out of their blogs in the process. Some of them came back after I stopped posting political stuff so much. When I think about posting a new set of political reflections, I feel anxious about losing access to their blogs, again, as punishment for not seeing things their way, for not letting them air or argue about their views here instead of in their own blogs, for not seeing things as unemotionally as they may see them, or for not being as emotional about what they are emotional about. I didn't do that to any of them; I just scrolled past their political posts and left them in peace, if I didn't agree with them. But far be it from any of them to extend the same courtesy to me. It reminds me of the emotional blackmail I grew up with, except now it's over politicians who don't know any of us personally and never will. I never thought I would see that day.
I hate being on tenterhooks, so I'm jumping down for a little while. If I'm gone for more than a day or two and you would like to continue to enjoy my photos, you are welcomed to visit my photoblog. If you want to know what is going on with me, please email me.
Central Park
18 July 2008
